I opted to stay in Trang rather than to travel this weekend. Dana left Friday and James & Evan went away for the weekend so I had time to explore on my own. I started off at a coffee shop in the morning at one end of town and then ventured down many of the streets - eyeing up souvenir gifts & researching travel info - as I began a long walk back to CCS's homebase.
A photo can tell a thousand words so here goes... (can't resist a few captions, though)
Trang municipality has about 70,000 people with about 600,000 in the surrounding area.
CCS's Homebase is about 1 km from the entrance to the Trang airport - a handy thing for someone looking for her way home.
The Clocktower - I've read its the largest one in all of Thailand. Wonderful landmark for me to keep my barings!
Sign in front of the City Hall Building near the Clocktower.
Intricate detailing of an elephant on the sign.
We saw a real elephant being lead down one of the city streets the day before - don't know why? CCS staff said it was really unusual.
Sign post near the City Hall building.
Sawngthaew, small pickup truck with two benches in the back, used as a bus/taxi. I was looking for one of these to catch a ride back to the homebase but none around. Since the homebase is a little outside the city - they're difficult to find. I had figured I'd probably be walking the whole way back (and had 2 offers from the CCS staff for rides, if I got tired of walking). I'm guessing I walked 6 or 7 miles total?
Like other Asian countries, cute things abound - little stuffed animals, cell phone trinkets, shirts with catchy little saying. I love cute things and have a certain weakness for certain ones of these. Needless to say, I spent a few baht here and there...
Are there many other places where you could buy a scooter with Doreman or Ariel on it?
While American car companies continue to struggle, I've seen several advertisements for Chevrolet's truck - the Colorado. I couldn't resist asking the dealership if I could have a photo with one. :) Ahh, I do miss Colorado!
While American car companies continue to struggle, I've seen several advertisements for Chevrolet's truck - the Colorado. I couldn't resist asking the dealership if I could have a photo with one. :) Ahh, I do miss Colorado!
STUFF THAT'S BEEN HAPPENING...
BOYS' HOME to THE DAYCARE
I loved volunteering at the Daycare with Dana last Thursday. There were about 25 kids, ages 2 to 5. The Daycare is part of a Nursing School which provides both reasonably priced daycare for working adults as well as an observation/class requirement aspect for the Nursing Students.
My role is less structured - I helped with teaching the English alphabet, numbers, colors and playing games with them. I quickly had a couple of favorite children from among the group. The children are fed breakfast and lunch, have numerous hand-washings, have meditation time & sing the national anthem (I'm told this - we didn't do these two things on Thursday), play, short teaching time and showers/teeth brushing before their afternoon nap. Extra hands are really helpful!
Well, after a lot of pondering and prayer, I requested that my placement be changed to the Daycare. The Daycare was never offered to me as an option originally. The plan had been for Dana and Holly to go there & CCS typically doesn't send more than 2 volunteers there. With Dana leaving & Holly having cancelled, I decided to ask if it was a possibility for me. Khem made the calls & I'll be going to the Daycare starting tomorrow for atleast the next 2 weeks! I'm very excited. While I value the role I had at the Boys Home, I think this will be a better fit. And, I will return to the Boys Home for either the last week or the last 2 weeks of my time in Trang. (They already have 2 volunteers, who arrive mid-May, scheduled for the Daycare. I'll only continue there if there's enough kids to make it worthwhile.)
For a lot of personal reasons, I think this will be really good for me. Top of my list is my own questions of wanting kids or not, sometime later in life. As I've gotten older and am not married yet, honestly, I've often felt that they would be too much work. Selfish, I know. I've figured maybe I would just skip parenting (that is, if I do get married...) because my time to myself is so highly valuable to me. I've felt like I have this major irony in life - how can I want to give so much in caring for other people but be unwilling to give unconditionally to a child? (I realize that it's partly b/c as a parent you surrender being able to pick & choose when you give - it's pretty much 24/7 for 18 years!) Anyway, I love children and value them so much. I hope to process through some of this through volunteering - that the Lord will expose some lies in my thinking and give me a fresh perspective.
Among my other thoughts - different schedule (start earlier, done earlier) + less stress in terms of planning and language = more time for me to pray & process through the many things I had hoped to accomplish while in Trang. Possibly good for Evan to work on his own - planning wise? The three nursing students on Thursday & I tried communicating in English & Thai - good opportunity to make some Thai girlfriends while I'm here & keep learning the language on a bit slower pace (which I reallly need - I'm sad to admit!).
And, I guess what topped off my decision is the feeling that making the change was acting out a good boundary for me. Historically, I'm not good at choosing when to leave something - almost always, I hang in there, thinking that with more work & perserverance, the task will end in success. So often, though, I go down with the ship. So, I think this decision is progress for me in this area.
So, well see how it goes! And, the reality that I'll probably be back at the Boys' Home before I leave Trang is fine with me. By then there will be a few more new volunteers so Evan & I will have the opportunity to team with them for the lessons.
SOLO TRAVEL
With Dana now gone & James leaving this weekend, it will be just Evan & I for a few weeks. I'm anticipating that any weekend traveling I will do will be alone. So, I've adjusted to this idea and will run with it. While I get recharged alone, what's the fun to go to a beach by myself? So, thanks to ALL of you who I truly feel are along with me on this journey. I'll pull up a towel next to my beach towel just for you :)
CHRISTIAN CHURCH
A total highlight to my time is learning that one of the staff, Jack, is a Christian :) Up until this weekend I hadn't gotten to ask him much about his background and his faith. I asked him if I could go to church with him this morning & he said he was glad to. Jack is from a town about 2 hours away and he normally goes home on weekends so he isn't always in Trang to attend this church. Jack said that very few of his friends are Christians.
It was a large church - typically around 500 people - and there was English translation headsets so I could hear & understand the sermon. The sermon was great - on Acts 1:1-11. The pastor really stressed waiting on God's timing, knowing and having the Word deep in your heart and being a witness through the power of the Holy Spirit. At the end of the service, two people stood up and said they wanted to accept Jesus into their hearts! So encouraging and empowering as I press on to be a light where I'm at!
After the service, a Thai woman came up & asked me I could help her with English. She has an English exam that she's failed 3x and really needs some help. I hope it works out for me to help her somehow --- she doesn't have good English and my Thai skills, well...
And, a retired man asked me if I would like to have dinner with him and his family tonight. The man spent many years in the US & has wonderful English. He gave Jack & me a ride home & spoke of how he sees everything that's happened to him as a gift from God.
Please continue to ask the Lord to use me as a witness and encouragement to those who I meet and spend time with.
Gotta go for now! Wishing you a wonderful and restful Sunday!
Love, Becky
becky ~
ReplyDeleteMany people have questions about children as they get older. So you are not alone. Sometimes the enemy may whisper things to you... and it can make you feel isolated, sometimes even feeling as you are the only person who has ever faced these questions. But don't just be with the kids to figure out your own stuff. Maybe God tugged on your heart to be there for a specific reason... either with the other volunteers in the daycare, or for a specific child who needs prayer? I don't know... but be open to it.
I will continue to pray for you to be light to others... I will pray for God to make some meaningful relationships for you with people in thailand.
Psalm 121:3 talks about how God will not let your foot slip, and that God never sleeps.
Sometimes it is easy for people to get fixated on places in our life where we think God is not working. Health, relationships, finances, etc. And because we focus on what is NOT HAPPENING... we miss so many things that ARE happening because God doesn't sleep.
Last year in May, I was praying about how would I ever get a C in speech class because of my social anxiety. This year, I am going on a mission trip with a lot of people I don't know very well... I spoke in front of about 50 people before Invisible children played... I am leading the nightly devotion in uganda... and probably starting a small group in the fall for writers. God may or may not be moving in my finances... but He is moving in other areas of my life, and answering prayers.
When I have questions, it is important to remember that God never sleeps. If I become fixated on one question, I sometimes miss all the other prayers that God is answering.
p.s. -- love you and miss you
ReplyDeleteGreat post. I love knowing what you are doing and what the Lord is doing in your heart. I am so so bummed that I missed your phone call today (the one time all weekend I had set my phone down). Warm me next time:). I miss you, and I am so encouraged to hear the decisions and choices yhou are making. Love you!
ReplyDeleteSo great to catch up on your life. I think the daycare is definitely a better fit. At least from my human perspective. Glad you're enjoying it. Keep your eye out for more of those Young Life shirts. Maybe the next one will actually be ON someone. You're in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteoh, I love reading your blog and hearing what your doing and what your growing in! I'm sorry that I missed your call the other day :( Can we set up a phone date ahead? Thanks too for thinking about my shopping needs! I'll write an email to you on that.
ReplyDeleteBut, I'm really glad you switched to the daycare and esp after reading all your reasoning. Another way of learning flexibility :) And, the weekend trips sound like a good time that is restful. How's that aspect going?
So cool to hear about going to the church! That is super encouraging and a gift from the Lord to have met Jack.
be in touch soon...
Big Colorado hugs to you,
love,
Kristi
ps so, there were no motorcycle taxi's around this time after the long walk?? :)
ReplyDeleteBecky,
ReplyDeleteLoved reading your post! The daycare sounds like a great fit!
I'm praying that with your new schedule, you'll have more time to pray and read and listen. He will direct your path!
Oh, by the way, I received the postcard from you and Kristi yesterday. I think it took the "scenic route" to get here. Loved getting it! Fun surprise!!
Love you, love you!
Rebecca